adventures, mommyhood, disclosure

Tuesday, 29 April 2008

wanderlust anyone?

It's entirely possible that I have been sitting at the edge of my seat since the start of the month when I realized that there would be a light at the end of the tunnel. I'm talking about the impending holiday which starts in approximately an hour and a half, and getting shorter by the minute. April 30 is a holiday in Vietnam (Liberation day) and of course May 1st around the world is Labor Day. Friday is basically a goner, and I am one of thousands in this country who were wise and not work-obsessed enough to file a leave on that day. In fact, even today IS a goner when you think of it. I should have booked the flight to leave today rather than tomorrow but there are some things you have to do (or days you have to work), even if you don't see the whole or half point of doing so. It doesn't dampen my excitement in the least. In fact I think being stuck here while I am on complete holiday mode just makes the anticipation take on a whole new level. Time, time feels likes it's on slow mo - I've been looking at my clock and it's been stuck at 4:28 pm for the longest time! I managed a calm enough morning but right after lunch time, it just hit me big time. I'm going on a holiday! A holiday I badly, badly need, so much so I've been hearing Maddonna singing in my ear the past month (and it wasn't "Papa Don't Preach").
I had all this energy, and what do you do with excess energy? You make lists! Stuff I need for the trip:

  • Passports - check
  • Valid Vietnam Visas (cause we do want to return)- check
  • Plane E-tickets, printed - check
  • Bus E-tickets, printed - check
  • Hotel address - check
  • Cab driver named "Man"'s number - check
  • KL host number - check
  • KL host housemate's number (in case the host doesnt wake up when we arrive at 4am Thurs) - check
  • Maps - check
  • Itinerary - it's all in my mind, but yeah, check
  • Backpack - check
  • Extra bag for the shopping spree - check
  • Comfy but fashionable clothes - check
  • Snacks - check
  • Wanderlust - BIG, BIG check

I'm so game, it's insane. Now if only time would hasten up...

Thursday, 27 March 2008

On Living in the Present

We all need a reminder every now and then - I'm guilty of both, looking back at the past and worrying about the future. Have to learn to cherish what I have today...


"Do not look back and grieve over the past, for it is gone; and do not be troubled about the future, for it has not yet come. Live in the present, and make it so beautiful that it will be worth remembering."
- Ida Taylor Scott


Monday, 24 March 2008

Survival Kit

I stopped at the 40th post and didn't blog for more than a month. Since then, I have:

... had a few ugly Mondays

... had a few "I want to quit today and go home" days. And those weren't even Mondays

... had a few awesome weekends i didn't want to end

... had one drink too many

... discovered that Berrocca kills a hangover really well

... discovered the malicious and devious blog and got hooked

... woke up shaken from weird dreams

... wished GMA bad, bad things

... shook the hand of a Mexican client and almost called him Mr. Marquez (as in Juan Manuel Marquez)

... spent Good Friday eating meat (i forgot and was touring some from my family who visited)

... spent Black Saturday night swimming and then gorged myself with pizza afterwards

... took a few dozen buses and taxis

... found out some friends were leaving Saigon and got sad about that

... missed home almost every other day - counting only those days I was conscious about feeling it!

.. started reading "What Should I Do With My Life?" (thanks R for giving the book to L, haha)

... convinced myself I'd look for more things to look forward to

So on that last note, I booked a trip today to go away and indulge sometime next month (and forget about work and all that miscellaneous crap).

And then in May and June I'm covered since I am going home again for a week via the oh so cheap Cebu-Pac flights! A week is all I need - at least for now

I'm wracking my brain about what to do for the months after that to survive the rest of the year. I'd welcome any ideas to add to my survival kit.

Friday, 22 February 2008

Closer

I read this from the Inquirer today. So they are spying on kulasa grounds too. I can just imagine that device in Gate 1. And Ms. Manila, i remember vividly in P.E. class with her whistle on her neck and that all-too-familiar gruff voice. And the students screaming upon seeing Lozada -- that could well be us too, years ago. Scary to think how closer and closer to home Evil has creeped into our collective lives. When will it end?


Big Brother also snooping on ‘Jedi’ at St. Scholastica

By Allison Lopez
Philippine Daily Inquirer
First Posted 06:45:00 02/22/2008

MANILA, Philippines -- Wherever the “Jedi” goes, Big Brother’s linemen seem to follow.

Officials of St. Scholastica’s College (SSC) in Manila discovered what they suspected to be either a spy camera or a bugging device installed near the main gate of the campus the night before they were to hold a forum with NBN whistle-blower Rodolfo Noel Lozada Jr.

The device was found perched behind an outdoor tarpaulin ad for the “Mamang Pulis” campaign of the Philippine National Police. It had been placed on top of an electrical utility box fixed to a concrete post near SSC Gate 1 on Leon Guinto Street, Malate.

SSC is the second school to have a suspicious gadget suddenly installed near its premises at about the same time it was hosting Lozada, the former government consultant who exposed alleged anomalies behind the cancelled $329-million National Broadband Network contract.

‘Mamang pulis’

Last week, the PNP installed a surveillance camera in front of Gate 4B of La Salle Green Hills in Mandaluyong City, but insisted it was to monitor traffic conditions on Ortigas Avenue -- not the movement of Lozada’s protectors and supporters based at the school.

SSC security guards first spotted the device at around 10 p.m. Wednesday, according to safety and security officer Vivian Manila.

About five hours earlier, a nun at the Catholic school saw uniformed policemen putting up the “Mamang Pulis” streamer on the same post, Manila told the Philippine Daily Inquirer (parent company of INQUIRER.net).

“This morning, we requested our IT (information technology expert) to see up close what kind of gadget it was,” Manila said. “It was positive. It’s something used as a camera or used to monitor communications.”

Cop says no camera

The school official, however, conceded that “we cannot just touch (the device) because it’s not ours. It’s an outdoor camera according to our IT. He knows because he used to install such devices himself.”

The PNP streamer concealing the device contained the cell phone numbers of the Manila Police District director, Chief Supt. Roberto Rosales; Station 9 commander Supt. Ferdinand Quirante and Pablo Ocampo Street precinct commander Chief Insp. Magno Gallora.
Reached for comment, Quirante admitted that he himself put up the Mamang Pulis tarpaulin with six other officers, but he denied installing a monitoring device behind it.

“We have no capability to install such cameras -- only tarpaulins,” the station commander said.

Quirante said he only learned of the purported camera through media reports and said that school authorities had yet to report it to the MPD.

Form of harassment

“If ever there are cameras out there, it would be for our anti-criminality campaign. But right now there are none,” he said. “We are always doing patrols in our areas but it has no connection to Lozada.”

“If that is (indeed a spy camera), then it’s a form of harassment (aimed at) our school,” said St. Scholastica’s Sr. Mary John Mananzan, OSB, national chair of the Association of Major Religious Superiors of the Philippines, a group providing sanctuary to Lozada.

“We’ve been here for a hundred years and this is the first time something like this has happened,” Mananzan told the Inquirer.

The device at SSC looked different from the spherical gizmo installed in front of La Salle Green Hills. The former has what appeared to be a lens pointed in the direction of SSC’s security supervisor’s office.

Noting this unusual positioning, Manila said the device may actually be for tapping phones rather than for visual surveillance.

“Our IT said we should observe it because it may be for monitoring our communications. These days we’ve actually been experiencing problems with our telephone connections.”

Four telephone lines, including her own direct line, bogged down Wednesday morning, Manila recalled.

Repairmen from the Philippine Long Distance Telephone Co. had the lines checked later in the afternoon but did not report seeing the suspicious device, she said.

Like a rock star

When he arrived at SSC for the 1 p.m. forum, Lozada -- who once compared himself to a crusading “Jedi,” one of the heroic knights in the “Star Wars” movie saga -- was greeted like a rock star by screaming fans in the all-girls school.

Hundreds of students from grade school to college chanted “Lo-za-da! Lo-za-da!” as he made his way to the packed auditorium.

“I do not want to cause a scandal, but I have been sleeping with the sisters in the last few weeks,” he said, drawing hearty laughter from the audience.

“The sisters would give me blankets. They would stay by my side every night. I would like to enjoin you young people to join the religious and be a sister or a father,” he said.

“We will never abandon you,” Mananzan said in response to Lozada’s appeal to the gathering to “see this thing through together.”

Last thing on mind

Asked by a student whether he had started having thoughts of running for President in the future, a grinning Lozada said: “I really love you. It’s the last thing on my mind.

“As I said I was just trying to save my soul. My wife is just shaking her head,” he said, referring to Violeta, who was seated in the front row.

“I have already been with the government, do I still have to enter politics? Ask my wife,” said Lozada, who resigned as president of the state-run Philippine Forest Corp. on the day he came out with his NBN exposés two weeks ago.

On a serious note, he said Filipinos “should not tire” of people power to fight corruption in government.

“It’s the people who will decide and God who will ordain it. People should not tire of people power. What we should get tired of are people who waste the gains of (our) noble actions … (who) use it for their own purpose,” he stressed.



Wednesday, 20 February 2008

How to reach womanhood

Strolling in what they make to be a "mall" in Saigon (think YP, Ever Gotesco etc.), I spot this blue shirt with a message that can only be shared verbatim:


"The sweet style of flower as if i was in a dream....
Gives full scope to the imagination...
To be in a pensive mood
and reach womanhood. "


Laban kayo?

Thursday, 14 February 2008

Let's Give It For The Boys

They didn't win. And worst of all, they even came third place. Nakakagigil that they were almost there and Rovilson just totally messed up that flag task (Marc, why didn't you do it???)

Butwe have to console ourselves that our boys played fair and in the end proudly brought the Philippine flag for all of Asia to see....



And well, Marc will always be HOT.

Valentine Story

My valentine story comes from ... TV.

This girl Heidi came into the L.A Ink shop and said she wanted a tattoo in her forearm to commemorate the vows she had for her husband (she just recently married). Story goes that they had met online, fell in love, and then met face to face at some point. 13 days after they met they get hitched. They were busy with the impromptu wedding that they wrote their vows 10 minutes before they actually had to say it. Hers was simple, but sweet and you so wish it would last for them. She had it tattooed in her arm:

"(I look forward to) Endless tuesday mornings going against the stream..."

Isn't that so true? It could be another day of the week for you, but when you're with someone you really want to be with, you just wish for something simple, like going through life and against the stream together.

So it was a bummer knowing that, that girl and her husband have since divorced. :( Long lasting love stories just don't last like they do in the past. But I guess for Heidi and her ex, it was great while it lasted.


Happy Valentines you all (enjoy it while it lasts). :P


Monday, 11 February 2008

Entourage

I'm too angry for words, but I have all this energy that need to be displaced somewhat. I hate every single one of them with bloodied hands:















I'm sure there are many more involved lurking in the background. What I still can't wrap my brain around is Joker and Enrile being on the same side.

Wednesday, 6 February 2008

Feeling Groovy

I had a dream about my Papa last night and I woke up singing this song that he used to play when we were kids.

It's my ultimate feel good song and it's called "The 59th Street Bridge Song" by Simon & Garfunkel.





The truth is, there are endless memories in your head, and they come back to you in different pieces, places, times. When they do, you feel as though the people who have gone never went away. They are just in a different place, thinking of you too and singing, "Slow down, you move too fast, you've got to make the morning last..."

Tuesday, 5 February 2008

Time, Tide, and Tet

I was watching this show on Discovery Travel & Living last night called "My Greek Kitchen" and while I'm not really wowed with the recipes (from very limited experience, Greek food sometimes looks better than it tastes), the chef said one line that struck me.

"Life's too short to be boiling beans."

And it is true - beans takes too long to cook, you have to keep stirring and watch over it like a shepherd watching over sheep. If you leave it too long, it could explode into a giant mess of mushy stuff all over your kitchen. And when you're done, you have something that- at best - is food substandard in taste. And beans are not stand alone. You HAVE to eat it with something else, and season it well to bring out its flavor. Don't get me wrong - I like ginisang monggo and with fried fish it's really a great dish. But when i think of the effort I need to put into making the beans just right, I think it's still too much work, for such a simple dish.

So my point here is time. Is it worth spending time over beans that take too long to cook when you know in the end you'd get something so-so? Should you just settle for canned beans, because as the chef in "My Greek Kitchen" says, it doesn't make much of a difference? OR - and this is harder to accept at first - Is there more to cooking beans than what meets the eye - is it exactly the time that you spend achieving a simple dish that molds you into having more patience and seeing the beauty in simplicity? I haven't figured it out. But I'm inclined too think it's the last one...

***

I've been reading what they say about 2008 for those born in the year of the Horse and survey says ... it's not good. Health, Career, Love, Finances - name it and they all say "Be careful" My first reaction is to write it off. But who am I kidding? Of course I am a little bit worried. Who wouldn't wish for a good year? Today at lunch Adrienne and I had a talk about astrology and how it all says it will suck for those born on the year of the horse (she's a horse too). She learned to read tarot and gypsy cards when she lived in the Czech Republic (trivia: Czechs hate Milan Kundera because he abandoned them and has lived in France - and writes in French - for many years now) - how cool is that? And aside from the Chinese horoscope she warned me that the next 2 1/2 years won't be great because Saturn is in Virgo. It all sounded like. well, greek to me so she explained: It means things will be weird for me and I'll feel a little confused. On the brink of 30 also doesn't help because she says i'll keep asking myself now what I want to do next and it won't be comfortable. She is right about the last part - and it has started already for me since the middle of last year. I've been questioning why I stay in this job when it doesn't hold much meaning and I'm not particularly happy. On a wider scale, I also think about going home, which I long for every now and then. I told her about my fear about getting my fortune read because I'm afraid it will burst my little bubble of a world, which seems to be relatively in order. But she reminded me about free will and how fortunes are just a guide. Makes us more self-aware, though she also admits that whatever we hear sometimes plants a seed in our subconscious and how we act is probably because of what we read or heard but are not aware of it. Or maybe that's how things should really be. Who knows? It's all very mysterious, disturbing, but also quite exciting. For the record, my worst year ever was 2004. Everything was in shambles. And I don't remember reading any warnings at the end of 2003 back then. Or maybe I didn't read any of that back then? :) I told Adrienne I'll consider having my fortune read. Maybe after the holidays I'll be a little bit braver (albeit more curious) as to what the impending tide is.

***

Tet - or in other parts of the world is simply called Chinese New Year - is coming up really soon in Vietnam. The streets are all abloom literally with flowers, lights and well, rats. The Year of the Water Rat starts officially on February 7, 2008. Normally dull Nguyen Hue street is what my friend Danreb would now refer to as "Nayong Pilipino" as it has turned into a theme park overnight. Dong Khoi street is just glowing with red and yellow lanterns and light galore. Le Loi street is reminiscent of the 80's disco era, with big blue balls hanging throughout its stretch, you can see it shining from afar. All of Saigon is ready for the new year. As for me, it's the first time I'm celebrating new year twice. I'm not complaining. If I can feel new beginnings twice, I'm all for it. Chuc Mung Nam Moi everyone! Or Kung Hei Fat Choi, whichever you fancy. :)

Pictures of the beautiful streets just mentioned to follow.